Justification

Why do people ever need justification to why you love them? Like, you tell them you love them and have done for a while now, but one day the question crops up:

Why do you love me?

What are you supposed to answer? There is never really any set reason for loving someone. You don't need a reason. If you love someone; you love someone. You can't help it. People fall in an out of love, for their own reasons, but not something like 'I fell in love with them because of their hair' or something. You love someone because that's how you feel. You don't love someone because of their personality or looks. Obviously that contributes to the reason, but you don't purely love someone because of their personality/looks.

So, I answered with the classic reasons; you're an amazing person and you're gorgeous. There was more to it but I don't really want to write out the whole thing.

If you ever fall in love, don't search for a reason why; there just isn't one.

Tympanoplasty

Yeah, they fucking hurt. For the past 3 days I've been in so much pain, despite constantly being on painkillers, as if I'm sedated or something. They make no difference.
When I sleep, my body wakes me up in 4 hour intervals. I have no control over it. So everytime I wake up I just take more paracetamol and go back to sleep.
I went to the hospital yesterday about some queries I had, now my mind's at rest. God, I really have no energy to even make a decent post.

Arsed

As I'm sat here listening to Tears For Fears, thinking about my operation on tuesday (ssshhiiittt!!) I've realised how a lot of people take their lives for granted. They get upset over minor things, when more major things - like having a tympanoplasty - could be happening in their lives. Complaining about boys or having a cold or school seems completely irellevant when you know you're going to have an operation in four days time...

This entry sounded awesome in my head but now it's shit.

Turrah x